i feel so bloody dumb

for thinking that you are one of a kind
that you actually trust me and what
but turn out that you are also one of those people who undercut me and thinks that im doomed to failure
but you know what?
im glad that we're not friends anymore
i might be naive years ago
and probably appear to be now
but you dont know the things that i know.
about you, what you think
like how you think that you are being perfectly logical for wanting people to accompany you to be with you all the time and never leave you
but in the end you will find out that you're just dependant on others you're just insecure
never thought i would say this but
i hate you
hate you for knowing things that time well all the time but you didnt tell me even when you knew that it was hurting me when i didnt had a clue why
you were much more cleverer (and cunning)
but i would do anything for you in a heartbeat
and you knew it
hate how you manipulate me
you might not have known what you were doing but it still doesnt changes the fact
i just wished to be best friends forever with you but we were just so fucked up.
well, i'll hate to be so hopelessly hopeful and naive always so thank you

though...you are actually no better than her, you know.