why does every moment have to be so hard?

why am i unable to tell u to fuck off everytime u play that game with me?
why am i unable to sit down and study when i know i want to?
why am i unable to say a simple hello when i want to?
why am i unable to find anything to say to comfort or make things better for asyraf when he's sad abt the matter with -?
why am i unable to stop eating even though i want to?
why am i so annoying?
why cant i speak properly?
why am i unable to even present a single slide properly?
why am i unable to help khalis to pass his crs paper when i had the means to?
why am i unable to defend tab when reghu comment on her size?
why am i unable to talk as freely to the rest of the people in class like tab justina and baby?
why am i so incoherent
why am i so emotional
why am i so coward-y?
why cant i do a simple task like - even though i cant go on anymore?
why cant i forget you? youre a fucking jerk you never gave me a real proper answer before you kept me hanging like an idiot
why am i even crushing on him? i dont even know him yet.
why am i so unmotivated?
why am i so ugly?
why cant i be happier?




i wont ___ until i find a reason to

until i find that reason for me to carry on

and i hope that reason is you.