looking for angels

nothing turns out well today

screwed up crs.

pissed off shone]

apologized to him

still guilt-ridden cuz i hurt so many ppl cuz of my violent tendencies and everything

ate and chat many things with the dns clique

saw him. still dun dare to say hello. iamsuchafuckingcoward.

half-cui on bus to south marina port and burden asyraf tab with my insecurities

took bumboat to the Spirit Of MOL, the cadet training ship

walk, sit, listen, walk, climb, try/use, talk, wear, walk, climb, run on the ship.

pissed off asyraf.

he still angry

end liao so took group photo

took more photos with angmoh cadets

nice-looking so ok. (haha superficial nautical bitch)

but left side-boob got groped but i think is accidentally. cannot be that desperate right

took more photos.

spastic smile turn more spastic-er

took bumboat back

saw him

all went to cafe at marina south port to lepa while waiting for bus

saw him agn

freaked out

pissed off

ran off

sorry and thank you aaron :(

took bus back

after this and that went home

super cui.

asyraf still mad or annoyed or irritated cuz i kept annoying/irritating him

i really need someone that is willing to listen to me. but i feel like im burdening everyone

i want you but im scared you wont think well of me

i want you but im scared you are not as that good as i think you are

i want you but im scared you will be frightened off like the rest.

and to you: would you still want me if you found out that im like this?