§ light me up when i'm down

i need to deal with this. i believe the reason i am thrown into the extreme of all conditions is because my god whoever he/she is wants me to be stronger of a person than i am before and it is also to prepare me for the career that i was meant to pursue. but damnit i miss him. i know the time zone means a lot now that im not in miami anymore. i cant help it. hate the fact that we have to be separated all the time because of the work we do. but i still wont give him up no matter what cuz my gut feeling tells me that hes the one for me :)