is it..?

I just told father and mother about what comments my uncle made about me not being capable to be in charge of a ship and all that stuff. he didnt said it outright but he implied. I was real angry and sad too cuz none of the other relatives except for Huiyu stood up for me. My hands was like shaking in anger and humiliation when i took the drinks out from the refrigerator bloody hell. but mother and father said that my uncle was not a very brave person, like he dont dare to do this, dont dare to do that, always finding the safest route to go and had never lived life to the fullest before and that because of that, he dont have the rights to talk cock about me because unlike him, i dare to face my dreams, dare to fight for something that i really loved :)

huiyu told me that ah ma kept complaining through out the whole trip and father was already sick and everything liao but ah ma just carried on. ranting on about how the service sucked and how going on a trip with my smallest uncle was much less of a hassle and more fun because unlike my father who had to rest for 3 straight days on the trip because he couldnt breathe properly in the high mountains, my smallest uncle can bring ah ma around and everything.

i freaking swear that i will become a successful captain and let my father and mother go on luxurious holidays, buy father a lexus like i promised and mother alot of nice stuff. I will let the relatives that looked down on us now regret sia. except for 3rd and small auntie and 爷爷 cuz they never doubted me. I swear i will. i freaking will. how dare those people look down and make things hard for them when they did everything to provide me huiyu and jiajia with everything we wanted. fuck sia seriously. they might not be perfect but they still mean the fucking world to me. only to them, im worth defending. god, im so fucking sad.